oh man...
i am freaking sleepy....
but i can't sleep... y?
i'm in writcom tutorial rite now. its 8.25 am.
did not sleep the whole night...
partly becauz i was finishing up my assignment,
n mostly becauz i cant sleep thinking about wad i'm suppose to do.
i was fucking pissed.

there's really no point talking abt it anymore.
u were the one who brought it up,
n i ended it.

i dun mind losing this battle. if it makes u happy,
i'll surrender...
if it means saving my frienship with the both of u,
i'll wave my white flag.
n i'm sorry.

i tried farna. n i appriciate u trying to help me.
its not easy for me to bend over for someone.
its nv easy for me to bend over for anyone w/o reason.
u reasoned things out for me.
thanks sweetheart....

i'm farking sleeeeeeppppyyyyyyyy......
Dun throw anything at me again wen i fall asleep k Patrick Wong...

So much had happened. So much is still happening...

The Orange Productions made it to the finals!!
The finals were held at Zouk. When I saw my video up on the big ass screen
I was freaking proud of what me n my crew had achieved.
We were nominated for the grand prize in the open category.
We had 1 out of 5 chances of winning.
We didnt win, but hey, we at least got the the finals rite.
Honestly, I was a little dissappointed.
okok, more than a little.
But its ok...
I'll live... ;p

i'm doing pretty fine rite now...
the peices are falling into place.
well, sort of...
i cant really say rite now.
i'm sorta in a "relationship but with no commitments".
its a little weird.
u dun commit. u dun receive commitment.
but feelings are exchanged.
ur intimate but only to a certain level.
ur sort of together but not.
wen someone asks if ur single u'd say,
"i'm seeing someone."
de ja vu... but lets not go there.
this is the sort of thing tt can potentially spit in ur face.
i'm getting too old for this.

n did i tell u, i've been coughing so much ever since i've gotten back frm Brunei.
n tt was like 2 weeks ago!!
i gotta cut down smoking!!
seriously, i really got to.
the doctor told me my bronchitis could potentially return.
i'm not gonna breathe thru the oxygen mask again.
3 sticks per day. tts my goal.
smoked 7 today.
.......................okok, i lied.
8...
its really tough!!
my uncle, he told me cut down, den he offered me ciggies!!
i took a stick.
hee....

i can do it.
i dun haf a choice anyway.
its either tt or oxygen masks.
hell yeah...

n sweetheart, i'm biting my tounge rite now.
more than words is what tt matters rite.
i'm showing it.
n i noe u are showing it too.
n oh yeah,
stop hiding my ciggies in those places!!
hee...